MESTI ADER HIKMAH....lucky ur choosen!

Wah .. its completely thruth that I ve been lost from the virtual…

not only Lost dr net… lost dr kawan2 yg saya sayang…nuthing but thruth friends.. ive been lost bile hilang dr korg… I don’t know how other people feeling’s biler they don’t be friend /mingle with the others n can say buleh idup sendiri.. saya mmg tak ramai kawan… most of the closest friends r@friendster itself…(yelah budak 'nakal yg x cantik nih' mana ader org nk kwn ngn kiter..:(. ...) act ader ramai gak kawan yg lain tapi dorg takde friendster n don’t believe in this ‘cyber’ world. Saya rasa jauh.. jauh biler sometimes I need friend but they cant be wth me… dis sycho girl  was raised lonely…. With the parents who so buzy yelah nk cari nafkah for their beloved children… with the bro n sis who enjoyed stay @ hostel rather than home n I m d only 1 yg tinggal kat umah … yes that’s y I always feel like im d only children @ that spooky but lovely teratak opah…

dlm masa tak sampai 2 bln (1 bln 1/2) mcm2 benda ...the good things n stupids things happend in my life.. i always tell myself.. hidup manusia mmg tak sama jln nyer..semua hamba diduga OLEHNYA dgn mcm2 cara... as wat i mentioned ..ive been living in this freaking upside down for 25 years..saya mencari ISLAM..erti HIDUP ,Keberkatan...n keRedhaan..itu dah cukup biler saya dpt ketenangan tu ...i was totally messup ..n i that time i really cant cope with it...im stuck with it.. like my father told me .. im  such a fool to worry like i do... lost with friends.. lost from the real world..n lost from soul...i dont know with whom should i shared with... sbb semua org ader agenda sendiri...dan saya tak perlu nk beban kan diri saya dgn org lain... aper lagik agaknyer slps nih?.bukan saya menduga.@mencabar.. tp sbb semua hamba tu lemah..lagik2 saya...yaALLAH jauhkan aku dr kekufuran ...L.O.S.T.. when i see others peoples reallly enjoy wif their life for sure im sick of that...

BUT now i know...y i m d 1 who selected :).. every1 seems very happy with their raya...but me was choosen to have an operation for appendiks.. oh GOD..im celebrating raya @ hospital..raya ke10 wey.. cube ppikir skit.. even dedulu ader gak buat kelen pasal pnyakit nih kat cikgu,bukannyer mkn lemang n rendang byk pon..something yg aku langsung tak pernah pikir... i dont eat spicy food.every1 knows that.. tapi itula kan ...tetibe je... i thout food poisoning.. esok g opis met DR.. they assuming me got pre appendix..amik drh+ urin test but everything shows ok..but frm the clasical theories..symptom apendik mmg ader..so they refer me to HUKM..the pain kejap sakit +kejap tak for last 6 hours.after admit @ hukm they took my blood test again n showed 12(drh putih)..meaning that already bengkak sbb pg tadi range die 4.8 n it cnt be more than 10.if more that that meaning that APPENDIX..will be meletop!n i dont feel sad at all when i was admitted n declared that i got this 'disease'?... ALLAH tu maha KAYA... smua jerit perih yg aku rase masa last month n 1/2 really paid wif this sakit..aku redha sgt n really berserah.. waktu nih i realized that i have a wonderful people around me who really love n care about me even b4dis i did met wrong friend..im maybe not so lucky like others but the care ,the tenderness that friend n family gaved me really strengh me up.satu masa dulu .. ader sorg budak kecik yg really need attention from people bcoz she had inferiority complex ..expecially attention from her family... she always pray to be admitted @ hospital to c either her family love her so much or not...most of her goodfriend knws her dreams..:P. n I know my family loves me so much..n i cant compared with others. n im lucky to have a wonderful friends yg really can accept me the way im...guys from the bottom of my heart.. do appologize me for the things ive done.....n really hope..its will be the L.A.S.T..SO adik is ur dreams comes true?

* subhanallah walhamdulillah

astaghfirullah wallahu akbar

subhanallah walhamdulillah

astaghfirullah hasbi Allah 

di tepi kerinduanku

memandang hampa pada dunia

ku hanya orang biasa

tak lepas dari rasa kecewa

hanya padamu tempatku mengadu

pahit yg kini menyiksaku

aku percaya tiada yg sia-sia

semua kan ada hikmahnya

subhanallah walhamdulillah

astaghfirullah wallahu akbar

subhanallah walhamdulillah

astaghfirullah hasbi Allah 

angan yg membalut mimpi

dulu melukis nyanyian hati

ku hanya orang yg kalah

satukan hatiku yg terbelah

hanya padamu tempatku mengadu

pahit yg kini menyiksaku

aku percaya tiada yg sia-sia

semua kan ada hikmahnya

p/s: b4 forgot..tahziah to SEHA... i was her die hard fan when i was kid especially the 'PERSAMAAN N TITI MENITI SONG..AND ALL THE MATAHARI'n from her this 'KYRIE's name was created...

act x baik lagik nih.. bengkakla plak..nk duk pun sakit..mklumla 7cm.mcm org bedah bersalin pun ader tp life must go on..trying n trying to fix it up..

ikhlas

M.e.wHO.l.o.V.e.S.a.tt.E.nT.ti.On..

Comments

[Adam]

Perancangan Allah lebih baik dan dia maha mengetahui apa yang terbaik untuk diri kita. Insyaallah, besar hikmahnya di sebalik ini.Allah juga tahu akan apakah yang terselit dalam hati setiap hambanya...
Yakinlah dengan janji Allah...

saya doakan anda tabah menghadapi dugaan ini.

[ayong]

kyrie..aku teringat kat 1 lagu ni..lagu i lagu lama...
rangkap yg paling aku ingat..
"BERSABARLAH...DAN BERTAWAKALLAH DALAM KEHIDUPAN INI.."
be strong girl...don't ever think that people around u tak sayangkan ko lagi...k?
so...chayokkk!!!
from cheras hill with love... mmmuuuaaahhhh...
=)

[Razwan]

for whatever predicament that youre having right now, just be patient and calm.. take life as an onion:peel it off one layer at a time, sometimes you'll weep but in the end your meal gets yummy for the tummy! yeaayy!!

[Leza]

kyrie,aku doakan ko cpt sembuh...jgn suruh aku pantang jer...ko pun same gak kene pantang..ko kan ala2 ganaz bile tdo...kene jage tu...aku pun tdo kene sandar tau...almaklumlah...ade byk sgt doc aku...mak aku,nenek aku,mak metua aku...so, sume kene ikut pantang diorang tu...hope to c u my dear krie 1 day...

[aiRia HuSni]

teme kacih kekawan.. lab u!!